My Heart is Sore.

Im still clenching my teeth. I've never seen my sweet "Timmy" like this before.. crying none stop. We were supposed to spend the day together with the fam at the beach or the park. We drove into the township, excited to see Timmy, however once we arrived at the safe house, we were informed that his mum had taken him. The story told was that he needed a check up at the hospital a good ways away. We decided to visit, at least to give them a ride home, though half way there we get a call. The below house girls tell us that Timmy is there, looking for us. Once we arrive we instantly see something is wrong. We are accustom to Timmy running up to us excited for the adventure ahead of him, today he is sullen. We attempt to talk with him, all he says is he is afraid. Timmy loves riding in the car and chocolate cake, so we set on our way to the mall. On the way there we continue to ask him why he still is crying, what is scaring him; then he tells us... in his own words, what happened last time, happened again. His mum had left him at the flat she lives (where he is being sexually abused) and goes to "her friends shack" (most likely to get drunk from personal encounters with her) and it is then that he is again assaulted.
We take immediate action, calling everyone we can think to help us. We end up heading to the police station. we are there for 3 or so hours, trying to have Timmy tell the legal councilors what he told us.... this was difficult. finally after 2&1/2 hours he talks.
Now we head to the hospital, at this point every time Timmy sits down its in my lap with his head on my chest. He falls asleep this way quite easily. I can't help but feel sadness and love for the 12 year old boy huddled up on my arms again my chest. Timmy thinks like a 5 year old and has been through more than any 12 year old should have. I'm comforted by the fact that he feels safe in my arms, but i know this can't always be where he is. I really wish i could take him.
He won't eat, not even his favorite meal... before or after the exam. again he sits in my lap all the way to the safe house.
Until tomorrow Timmy.



- MsSpeaker